Hyper-Compassionate

I don't know what it is. I don't think it's culture shock, but for some reason I feel incredibly hypersensitive. Everything that touches my heart I feel 5 times stronger. When I look at people on the street, I want to smile at everyone and make sure they are doing well and are happy. There are so many people who sell things on the street and people pass them by because "they're just somebody who's selling something." I hate it! I mean, that is how I saw them at first. But everybody is a person with feelings and a heart and a need for Jesus.

I am also feeling a weight for people whom I have caused pain in the past. It has been unusually strong the past few days. It is good though because it brings these things to the front and I have to deal with them. It drives me to do what I should be doing every day, to feed on the Bible and talk to Jesus. And I call and talk to my mom and dad which helps a lot too. I have a problem with letting things go, both good and bad things. But there is so much good out there to let the bad things get in the way! I think it was Oswald Chambers who said something like, God doesn't want to make you into something you once were, he wants to make you into something you've never been. Man. It's like these things that we go through, we can't look at them and say that "if they had just never happened..." It's like, they can happen and, only by the grace of God for sure, we can be somebody totally different in a good way.