They are paving part of the road in Havelock and it is causing pandemonium because people will try to turn left where it is obviously impossible and I had to honk my horn twice today. I thought to myself, "We wouldn't be having this problem in Arequipa!" The people there would not even hesitate to jump out into the traffic.

My mom told me last night that I seem happier these days. That surprised the heck out of me because I thought I'd been extra emotionally unstable, leaning toward suicidal, but then when I thought about it, it is kind of true. (That was a joke, by the way, about being suicidal). I find the people around me much more enjoyable lately, and not just my friends and family, but the people in my city and at my church. There was a Senior Saints luncheon today because it is the first Monday of the month, and usually I go over to eat with Pastor Ray and Ms Ginny or David and Frances VanPatten, but today I sat down at a table with people I didn't know. I wasn't planning on staying there, I just came in late and needed to sit down. But then I thought, what's the point in leaving? And it ended up being really nice. I didn't even know some of those ladies knew who I was. They were so encouraging and I think one couple was at our table and didn't know anybody either and so I talked to them a bit.

These people in my church have so much to give and need so much and I just figure they wouldn't want to talk to me. I still see myself as a kid mostly. But I don't know what the difference is now. I just don't feel as intimidated about talking to them. And more than that, I actually really care about them. I like this feeling.